The Inner M. I. L. F. Inside

Michelle Rostykus
2 min readFeb 4, 2022
Photo by Fabiola Peñalba on Unsplash

On sites such as Medium, it can seem overwhelming when trying to write your material and keep up with your followers’ submissions at the same time. But, figuring out how to get both done when you follow so many members and have so many followers following you is not as hard as you may think.

My first thought was to start at the top of my follower list and work my way down. But that wasn’t working for me. I couldn’t trust that I could continue to keep track of which followers I had read that week, especially as my list of followers and writers I choose to follow continues to grow. And that is when it hit me. I could bookmark everyone’s page in one of seven folders (A-E, F-J, K-N, O-R, S-V, and W-Z).

Now, I have a folder a day set aside for reading. And the good Lord only knows what time of day I will work on and then submit what I write. I do not have a deadline to meet, so I will wait for inspiration to hit me. And beginning next week, both might take a bit longer than usual.

On 15 February and 8 March 2022, I will be undergoing bilateral knee replacement. And I have three appointments next week leading up to my first surgery. But, I will download Medium onto my iPhone and do my best to listen to as many of my followers as I can while I am in recovery.

I should have had these surgeries in late 2019/early 2020. And as a result, I am so fed up and exhausted that I am sure I will sleep a lot. And, it will be out of pure unadulterated relief, rather than in response to medication or the pain.

But again, I will do my best to keep up with my reading and writing here. Still, if I do not, at least now I have told you in advance why I have been remiss.

Once I begin my recovery, I will be documenting my search for the inner M. I. L. F. inside. And, I invite you all to follow along as I (with my brand new knees) walk my way toward that 115-pound Michelle I’d Like To Find.



Michelle Rostykus

Mother, sister, aunt, great-aunt, cousin, friend; love being a chamberlain and courtier to my six-year-old Brindled American Shorthair and living in the country